At the beginning of the year, we would never have known what was in store for us in the coming months. We didn't think that anything about our new babies life would be anything but perfect. And I think back to the time where I felt like I was dead, or dying, or maybe both and it wasn't that long ago.
I guess all this to say that Ella got her pictures taken last week. She was dressed up in this little purple fairy costume that matched her glasses. She was cute and went right into character when she put them on. And it wasn't until we looked at the proofs online yesterday that I realized what those pictures really were: She made it. It is December and she is alive and well. No, the doctors never told me she would die, but when they are saying words like "aspirated pneumonia" and "airway obstruction" my imagination can work on its own. Maybe in the back of my mind I didn't think she could come this far.....or maybe it was that I didn't think I could come this far. But, here we are. And I look forward to spring next year more than ever because what was dead is made new. I feel like 2008 is full of promises and hope for us. Not like every year is because we do control our own destiny in so many ways, but differently because we have learned so much to be grateful for and appreciate a new start.
2008? Bring it on.
I guess all this to say that Ella got her pictures taken last week. She was dressed up in this little purple fairy costume that matched her glasses. She was cute and went right into character when she put them on. And it wasn't until we looked at the proofs online yesterday that I realized what those pictures really were: She made it. It is December and she is alive and well. No, the doctors never told me she would die, but when they are saying words like "aspirated pneumonia" and "airway obstruction" my imagination can work on its own. Maybe in the back of my mind I didn't think she could come this far.....or maybe it was that I didn't think I could come this far. But, here we are. And I look forward to spring next year more than ever because what was dead is made new. I feel like 2008 is full of promises and hope for us. Not like every year is because we do control our own destiny in so many ways, but differently because we have learned so much to be grateful for and appreciate a new start.
2008? Bring it on.
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